Happiness comes from within

I had a revelation a few days ago. I was having a conversation with my grandma and asked her out of the blue what did she feel when she had found out that she's going to have twin grandchildren. I thought she was going to say she was surprised or ecstatic but it turned out her answer was something that I did not expect at all. She said "I was really concerned for your mother because it was her third time giving birth with C-section. And that time it wasn't just one baby⁠⁠⁠—there were two."

Suddenly, I felt a stroke of gratefulness. How lucky I am, to have healthy twin little siblings and to have my mother still alive and healthy today after what she's been through. Then I started to think about other blessings that I had (and still have, thank goodness). All of my grandparents are still alive and love their children and grandchildren more than anything. I still have a job in this time of crisis. My mom and dad are still alive, have incomes, are still married to each other and love their children. Everything that I have is enough, and I should be content.

Speak Now

These things that I post are actually very private & I don't even know why I post it but I just need to share this with everyone.

Okay so, first of all, I broke up. & strangely I'm not even sad. Like, at all. I'm actually happy, I'm no longer tied up with a guy I don't have feelings for. I mean, he's nice smart and all that. I can never find a reason why I am not attracted to him. But I just don't. But there are no regrets, though.

Second. Now there's someone. Actually, I've known him since 4th grade, maybe. & I liked him, he liked me and all that shit. & by middle school, we lost contact. We've got our own little lives. But now, everything went back, since he & I go to the same school in high school. I still like him, of course. I think he's that kinda crush who I'd never lose my feelings for. He still likes me. I don't make that up, I've got a trustful resource & some evidence. What I don't get is what is he waiting for? Or he's not waiting for anything? He perhaps plans or nothing. I don't know, just don't know.

14-02-12

So guess whattt?!?!?! Today's Valentine's Day!!!! :} Okay there's actually nothing special that has happened to me, like the way it has always been for the entire 15 years of my life. I've never given a chocolate to a boy nor gotten a chocolate from a boy. Aaaanyway, even though nothing special happened to me but doesn't mean that my friends & I are in the same boat.

Earlier today, at the first break, my classmate ask this girl to be his girlfriend after he gave her this gigantic card with lotssssssa sweet sentences on it and some red roses. And, of course, she said yes. I mean, how could you reject that right??

Ehmmm, I guess that's all for now. Bye!

xoxo