Speak Now

These things that I post are actually very private & I don't even know why I post it but I just need to share this with everyone.

Okay so, first of all, I broke up. & strangely I'm not even sad. Like, at all. I'm actually happy, I'm no longer tied up with a guy I don't have feelings for. I mean, he's nice smart and all that. I can never find a reason why I am not attracted to him. But I just don't. But there are no regrets, though.

Second. Now there's someone. Actually, I've known him since 4th grade, maybe. & I liked him, he liked me and all that shit. & by middle school, we lost contact. We've got our own little lives. But now, everything went back, since he & I go to the same school in high school. I still like him, of course. I think he's that kinda crush who I'd never lose my feelings for. He still likes me. I don't make that up, I've got a trustful resource & some evidence. What I don't get is what is he waiting for? Or he's not waiting for anything? He perhaps plans or nothing. I don't know, just don't know.

14-02-12

So guess whattt?!?!?! Today's Valentine's Day!!!! :} Okay there's actually nothing special that has happened to me, like the way it has always been for the entire 15 years of my life. I've never given a chocolate to a boy nor gotten a chocolate from a boy. Aaaanyway, even though nothing special happened to me but doesn't mean that my friends & I are in the same boat.

Earlier today, at the first break, my classmate ask this girl to be his girlfriend after he gave her this gigantic card with lotssssssa sweet sentences on it and some red roses. And, of course, she said yes. I mean, how could you reject that right??

Ehmmm, I guess that's all for now. Bye!

xoxo

Summary

Ehmm there are actually bunch of things that happened to my life & I haven't written down a thing about it in this blog. So, I'm just going to make a summary for you guys about what happened & going to write it down if I'm in the mood to do so (not promise :p)

December 9th 2011

It was my birthday and my classmates made a surprise party for me ({}) So, my class tradition is when someone is having a birthday, we gave them a big card full of our signatures. But at my birthday, they didn't make a thing and sure, I was disappointed but I was trying all my best not to care but still, because I'm a natural expressive person, it was written all over my face. And everybody could tell that I was in a very bad mood. And so after school (it was Friday btw) I played to my friend's house & played there until 9pm-ish. And my mum picked me up and I straightly fell asleep on the way home. When I got home, I took my towel and was going to my bedroom to take some clothes then take a bath. As I opened the door I saw my classmates. In my room. Talking and laughing. And both me and my classmates were shocked because my friends (the one that I played in her house earlier & a few others) were supposed to come before me, so when I opened the door they thought I was my friends-_- so they weren't exactly prepared and so the wish was kinda failed.. but then they told me to go out to repeat the surprise and so I did, and the 2nd time I got in, I pretend that I was shocked. At the 2nd time, they turned off the ceiling light and they lighted up the candles. Not long after, my friends came, and they told me to go out. Again. Wtf?!?!?!? And so it was repeated again... Then we talked in my bedroom, then they gave me birthday gifts, I was sooo thrilled <3 It was a so freaking failed surprise but I still had so much fun anyway. I love you guys to infinity and beyond:*

December 22nd-29th 2011

-going to continue this post when I have some time, have katakana learning to do, c-ya xxx-

This Fucked Up Situation (eyah)

Hey guiiiiiize. Okay. So. The title can't be more obvious, can it? Sebenernya disini mau ngelampiasin doang sih apa yang sedang dirasakan sekarang hueheuhe. All I wanna say is....

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That's all thank you :)